My Christmas List....

Folks keep asking me what I want and I keep telling them "I dont know". What's funny is that I told myself that anyone who told me they didnt knw what they wanted would get a t-shirt that said "I didnt know what I wanted for Christmas so I ended up with this shirt". Anyway... my Christmas list for any of you that want to show me how much you love with me with materialistic shit. You till got 2 days so get to it!

DVD's: someone either beat me for my DVD's or I lost them either way, I need some movies. I need all the House Party movies, Player's Club, Women of Brewster Place, What's Love Got to Do With It.... old school shit. Sparkle, 5 Heartbeats, the Wiz.

Flat Iron: need to keep the edges silky straight.

Mp3 player: I need a new one like ASAP. Not into Ipod and all that touch screen shit but i'd re-gift one of those cheapy free ones. LOL just being honest

Handbag: I love a nice handbag. Betsey Johnson and Michael Kors are probably my fav bag designers.

Makeup: I have a strong addiction to makeup... it's so sad but oh so damn true. Ulta or Sephora gift card would do

Big, reliable... uhm yeah: Preferably a Capricorn ;)

I dont know what else I want but Im sure that the more I shop for other folks, this list will grow.

So, what yall want? Im in the buying mood for the next 11minutes!

The Day My Christmas Spirit Died....

Let me just start by saying I love all things Christmas... the decorations, the cheerfulness, the shopping, my son's face when he opens presents, and most of all the Christmas music (don't front like y'all don't sing "This Christmas"). However, Christmas hasn't been the same for me since Christmas of 2002.

Christmas was considered a big event in my house growing up. My mom was a T.V mom. She decorated the whole house with green garland and lights, cooked a big dinner and always bought trees bigger than our living room could hold. This particular Christmas was going to be bigger than the previous ones because my dad had received a large settlement and promised us a huge Christmas with a lot of presents.

For weeks, i had done all of the shopping because my parents were busy working late shifts and didn't have time for shopping. At 16, i was taking several buses and traveling to the malls to buy the presents that I knew my siblings and parents would want. After I'd come home, I'd go in my room and wrap the presents up in beautiful paper and ribbon and store them in my closet. There were so many gifts in my room that I couldn't close my closet door and had to hide them under my bed... Playstations, MP3 players, computers, movies, jewelry. You name it, I bought it. I wanted everybody happy when Christmas came.

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